Recent Stuffs

8:02 sunrise
19:39 sunset

Feel like I’ve been a bit all over the map lately; not in a bad way but just a bit more scattered than usual.

I dyed my hairs again, this time a bleached blonde.  I was highly uncertain that I wanted to let my stylist (even though I luuuuuurve her) bleach my locks but then I decided, what the hell.  It really is only hair. And I love it.  I feel like a little nordic elf and a colleague told me it looked very modern, which jazzed me.  I came home right after having it cut and I took lots of photos of myself wearing one of the vintage dresses I bought last summer.  That’s normal, right?

Also, I have ventured into the very scary place of taking singing lessons.  As part of Fit for 40 I promised myself that I would try to learn something musical.  As a kid, I was never put into piano lessons (which was really common with other kids my age) and no one in my family (aside from my paternal grandfather) participated in musical lessons or activities.  The closest I ever came to being taught music was in my grade 7 and 8 elementary classes where, in the early 1980s, music education was still considered part of core curriculum. We sang, in younger grades, and in grade 7 we learn to play a wind instrument of our choosing (I started with the alto sax and moved on to the trumpet).  In grade 8 we were given the opportunity to play a stringed instrument (I chose the double bass, mostly because I didn’t want to be ‘girlie’ and play the cello).  I remember being taught rudimentary (and I mean really basic) sheet music reading (Every-Good-Boy-Deserves-Fudge) and a lot of words and ideas that still sort of mean something to me (time signatures, measures, rests, clefs, what a whole note vs a half note looks like when you draw it, etc).  But in a nutshell – I was and still am – a music theory and performance neophyte.

I never cared about this, particularly.  My version of pre-teen geekdom was not band club.  I was more interested in visual and literary arts then, something that has remained true to this day.  But, if getting older means poking around in areas of my life where I haven’t spent much time and pushing myself into uncomfortable places in order to experience personal growth, then I am going to try.  But man these voice lessons have been nerve-wracking.  Don’t get me wrong, my teacher is lovely and kind (and she has a beautiful voice) but it is really, really hard to put myself out there in a public space – even if public is only a little music room in her house.  We aren’t following the Royal Conservatory of Music’s program but instead she is teaching me how to strengthen my range, tone and ear through exercises and selected songs. I’m actually kinda interested in some of the music theory but for now I am happy to just soak up anything and everything she wants to teach me.

At the moment, my voice feels like too much of an extension of my identity.  I try to think of it as an instrument that I have never learned to play but when I hear myself – and I often sound quite bad – it is hard to push through and keep trying.  I’m embarrassed at how I sound, even though I know I should give myself a break, keep trying and just be patient.  I’ve only had two lessons so far and I have just one song and a whole bunch of posture/breath/stance/range exercises to work on but, for now, that’s enough. I’ll mention that I have also joined my instructor’s pop choir, which is starting to be fun as a I start to relax. It’s a good balance with the lessons because I can hide among other people and there is something kinda fun about singing with other people.  I’ve never been in a choir so this too is new for me.

What else………. I haven’t been riding a ton over the last couple of weeks but I am okay with that.  The days that I have been out have been full of fall colour and I am again feeling so much love for the place I call home.  We had a really fabulous summer weather-wise and so far that has continued into fall.

Goat Trail – September 22

And in a week I am going on vacation – which I am really looking forward to.  Plans have come together sort of last minute but I’ll be spending ten days between Vancouver, Victoria and then Portland.  I’ll be visiting friends in all three cities and I am looking forward to catching up with them.  Truth be told, I am also excited about eating at good restaurants and imbibing yummy cocktails.  Oh, and this place. I am pretty excited to spend a bit of time trying on some fabulous frocks.

 By the time I get home it will be the very tail end of finter and I will have to turn my mind towards snow and cold weather. Maybe, just maybe I’ll be ready for it this year.

Advertisements

4 comments

  1. I love your new look! Makes me think I should change something in this regard. I've been rocking essentially the same hairstyle since I was 6 years old, whenever it was that I stopped wearing pigtails on a regular basis.

    Have a great vacation. I'm considering a Juneau trip in March and a side trip to Whitehorse would be a definite possibility. I hope we can meet up!

    Like

  2. I love the hair and obviously I am THRILLLLLLED that you opted for voice lessons. It's a huge leap to make when you don't really consider yourself a singer, but everyone is a singer and it's an awesome thing to do for yourself! I have worked with lots of adult beginners, which I love, and I am always so impressed with their willingness to do something uncomfortable/scary/unknown, since historically I have just stuck to things I'm already good at.

    I also wanted to say that voice study, even for pros, involves a LOT of identification with the voice-as-self. It IS yourself! It's a huge part of how you present yourself to the world and how you think of yourself. So changing it and even improving it can be freaky and intensely personal no matter what level you're at. For a lot of people, just coming to grips with the idea that they have something that deserves to be heard is a huge psychological change.

    Anyway, I can go on. So awesome you're doing this. Let me know if you want second opinions/more info!!

    Like

  3. Maven – thanks for your thoughts. I actually would love for you to go on and for me to soak up any advice/thoughts, etc you have on being a middle-aged beginner or on singing generally. Pop choir has become more fun (actually, I think I can safely say that is *is* fun. We did some Bruce Springsteen last week and Amelia Curran this week) but my lessons are still emotionally hard. However, I am interested in everything and all things 'voice' at the moment.

    Like

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s